Thoughts out loud

"When I grow up,I want to be a......" Am sure we are all familiar with this,we said it at some point in primary school,either because we dreamt of how we want to see ourselves or because we were asked by our class teacher.some of us have kids/nieces and nephews who say that now.
          The question is this......when do u grow up,what age is UP? Is it that the girl that dreamt to be a lawyer but got a bank job hasn't grown up? Does she give up growing up? Or does she grow to be somebody else?

           I was just thinking about it,I asked myself how much success do I have to attain to say I am living my dream already,how much work do I have to do to make it to my dream? What if I never make it to my dream,what if I keep working hard and Its all to stay in between the ladder,yes am not poor am comfortable.....no am not rich,I can't afford to buy a 250,000 naira birkin.
          When should we be satisfied? I got my entrepreneurship skills early,I thought about how I Dont want to be passive on this planet, I Dont want to die a mediocre, I am so full of greatness that I need to show to the world,I have got so much to give,but I am scared,what if it doesn't work,what if I fail in my field, do I run into another field to see if I will be seen there? What if am just a c4 and everyone the world knows ranks from b3? The people lower than c4 will envy me but I will be bitter,I will make it to the red carpet but I will be editted off because they have to air for only 10mins,what if the first lady buys my dress and I wait all year for her to wear it on national TV, what if she never does...........but wait...........
Did I just see my name on Forbes list?
 Oh yea its me,
that's also me on the red carpet on E! I learnt that's the 10th time today and its just 1pm,
I just got a call from the first lady,she is addressing nations in my dress.
         Oh did I mention my family? Am married to this awesome man that's loves God, we have two kids,we just got back from las Vegas on vacation.............
         They are all dreams and they can come alive,never give up,know the "what ifs" to listen to,Dont weight yourself down with negative thoughts,belive in yourself, Dont get comfortable with the bank marketing job when u should be in the court room. Dont let the devil steal your joy, keep pushing just like me.